A Summer Soul

"Kismet  was borrowed into English in the early 1800s from Turkish, where it was used as a synonym of fate. This was an expansion on the meaning of the original Arabic word that led to  kismet : that word,  qisma , means “portion” or “lot,” and one early 18th-century bilingual dictionary says it’s a synonym of “fragment.”"  —  "It's Kismet", Merriam-Webster.com

  "Now if you're looking for a savior, well, that's not me."   -Lorde, The Path So Lorde is back.     The significance of this -- of all the little things that had to fall into place to be in a similar headspace as this literal pop icon after whom I've patterned myself since 2013 -- is astronomical (hehe).      First things first, however...     I sleep through the night now;  I no longer look with yearning at certain tools of destruction; I wake up and want to live; I can tell my story without dissolving into sobs; I drink hot tea every morning before work; I serve my small town as a bastion against illiteracy and misinformation, spending paid time amongst the quiet and the sacred rows of books. I've found kindred spirits (read huge nerds ) in my fellow laborers. I've read 11 and 1/2 books this year (but that's a post for another time  😉). I spend a little less time on my phone placing the weight of the world on my shoulders and ...

In the last few weeks, I watched four films dealing with loss, and the ways humanity deals with theft, whether of bright futures, loved ones, healthy relationships, or freedoms. Didn't realize the connections between them all until literally just now, when I started to write in my down time (of which I suddenly have much).

Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls.”  –  Matthew 11:28-29  NLT

The url says Mrym Music, and yet there has been little to no music, so here's me singing a cover of an extremely relevant song as quickly and succinctly as I can before my mom's dog starts baying at the frogs in his water bowl again. :)

tem·per·a·men·tal /ˌtemp(ə)rəˈmen(t)l/ Learn to pronounce adjective 1. (of a person) liable to unreasonable changes of mood. synonyms: volatile, excitable, emotional, overemotional, mercurial, capricious, erratic, unpredictable, changeable, inconsistent, unstable, hotheaded, fiery, explosive, hot-tempered, short-tempered, quick-tempered, irritable, irascible, impatient, petulant, prima donna-ish, melodramatic.

I witnessed Ricky Lee Jones on stage last night. It felt like I was there to study, and the anticipation built by her percussionist on the vibraphone was tangible in the theatre...

I just finished my very first game almost all by myself (I had help from Terrell) tonight! I joked that it was about me, because, well, look...

Is this how every adult is born?

There is  nothing better for a man,  than  that he should eat and drink, and  that  he should make his soul enjoy good in his labour. This also I saw, that it  was  from the hand of God. - Ecclesiastes  2:24 KJV

These nights are why it's called Hard Talks.

"Sometimes I doubt your commitment to Sparkle Motion!" A reference indicating that the person being doubted is lacking in the mock politeness required to convince someone that they really care about attending to events, duties, or rituals that no one should ever be asked to perform.

I'm so excited to finally share this recent developement with you!

A trapped soul howls loudest when it can find absolutely nothing to say without curses and tears.

I am being attacked by answers I haven't been asking for. By attacked, I mean pursued, hunted down. Chased.

Birthdays seem to be getting simpler. The year before last was a messy affair in San Antonio full of idolatry, lust, and underage drinking.

Sometimes, the Bible reads you, but you don't figure that out til the very end of the day. After-sight is 20/20.

wouldn't be you.